Dreams
I was watching a little TV tonight and a Honda Accord commercial came on. A guy was singing a song and some of the lyrics to the song were, “Hold on tight to your dreams.” Catchy little tune. The question is, when does holding on tight to your dreams become white knuckling them? And we all have more than one dream, how is one to discern which dreams we hold on to and which ones to let go of and let the blood return to our fingers? That commercial was followed by a CVS commercial with a woman crooning, “Just another ordinary miracle today.” I do believe in ordinary, daily miracles. Especially since having children. The human body and how it functions in every moment, is just an incredible miracle to me. Unfortunately, I sometimes forget my miraculous body and those of the people around me, because they have become a little “ordinary”. But my dreams are extraordinary. Maybe that’s why I always cling a little too tightly.
So I find myself in a predicament. I have had a lifelong dream (and the story itself isn’t consequential) and I am wondering if it’s time to let it go. I have had my fair share of dreams implode, some large ones fairly recently, that I thought I would be able to discern the keepers from the lifeless, throttled ones (thanks to strong hands). Maybe what I actually learned is to discern reality from my dreams. So I find myself on a fence, not knowing what side to choose, and when I don’t know what to do, I choose to do nothing. I figure if I rationally can’t make a choice, I’ll let reality make it for me. So dreams and reality must be like a hot/cold, yin/yang thing, you can’t have one without the other. We need the physical, reality world to physically see the manifestations of our dreams and desires, and normally it is the physical, reality world that inspires the dream or desire in the first place. Such as seeing a Honda Accord commercial on TV and hearing a great little song, dreaming and desiring owning the Honda, and potentially going out and buying it. Voila! Life is easy! But what if you couldn’t decide between the Honda or the Mazda? Do you do nothing, or buy the Toyota? This is why being in my head is not for sissies!
Normally what I do is make some impetuous decision that winds up being a huge disaster. I guess I don’t mean disaster, more like a gynormous life lesson. I’m tired of gynormous life lessons, so I’m at a point in my life where I’m not choosing to do much of anything hoping that the choices reality will make for me, will be much kinder and gentler. So a lot of my dreams and desires are on the line. No one believes in a good dream like myself, now I just don’t know how tight I should hold on to some of them. I don’t think it’s a bad thing either, there’s always a new one to take its place. Besides, there’s just another ordinary miracle on its way.
Debbie @ October 26, 2007