Getting What You Want
I believe that we are constantly creating our reality, whether it’s conscious or unconscious. I believe that everything that is happening in our outside world, is a direct reflection of how we feel on the inside. So depending on how you feel about your outer world, is how you feel about yourself in your inner world, so to speak. I believe that we always get what we want, and that human nature is such, that it is always desiring something. Again, consciously or unconsciously. The real question isn’t getting what we want, but when we get it, do we really want it?
I recently had an experience in which I was able to uncover a deeper level of grief. At first I was resistant and angry, I was afraid of feeling the pain. But when I gave into it, it was such an unbelievable relief. It was as if I pulled a dark blanket off of me, that had been covering some part of my soul. In taking that thick, heavy, dark, dirty blanket off that I had labeled “grief,” I uncovered a part of myself that was able to shine. Did I want the grief? No, but I wanted what was underneath of it, and when I got that, the grief became a beautiful blessing.
There is this wonderful story my Holistic Health Practitioner teacher told the class one day. Somewhere in India, there was this HUGE dirt and mud Buddha. People from all over the world flocked to see it and pay homage. A couple scientists wanted to see what was beneath all the mud, dirt, sticks, and muck. They got approval from the locals to start work on the Buddha. They went through layers and layers of all sorts of organic matter until finally they uncovered what lay beneath. It was a Buddha made of solid gold. It was the most beautiful shiny gold imaginable. The scientists could not understand how such a treasure had come to be covered with so much crud. They decided to do some research and found out that hundreds of years earlier, the village was being invaded. To protect their precious Buddha, the villagers covered it with anything and everything they could, so that the invaders would see it as worthless. When the village was overtaken, no one thought to question what was beneath all the mud.
The point of the story? We are all priceless Buddhas made of gold underneath, we’ve just covered ourselves up with so much crap as defense mechanisms to protect ourselves from the “outside” world. So every time we face grief, fear, anger, or any other negative emotion, we essentially uncover a little more of our golden Buddha.
I choose to spend this lifetime uncovering as much of my golden Buddha as possible. I choose to shine from the inside, because it feels so much better than living in fear or being angry. I believe if what I desire and want comes from this shiny, inner place, when I do get what I want, I will welcome it.
Debbie @ February 2, 2008